Thinking of you today, on what should've been your 64th birthday. Despite feeling sadness at how young you were taken away, being angry and bitter at the world because you've been gone 11 years and it feels like a lifetime, and thinking I should've had you for another 20-30 years, but instead I only got you for 20. Despite that I'm trying to hold on to the fact that I had an amazing woman as my mother and my best friend. That I was honoured to have such a person in my life that made the loss so hard to bear.
I'll never be ok with losing you, I'll always miss you and always wish you were here. I hope you know how much I've always loved you and I always will. <3 xx